May 2022. This is a post from the beginning of the pandemic. It’s been sitting in my draft folder for more than two years now. I am publishing it without revising, so please excuse its first-draft form.
I know that a lot of people are having a hard time. I know that staying at home is hard for some people and going to work without the proper gear is hard for others. I know that people aren’t receiving unemployment checks and that makes them make terrible choices. I know that a lot of kids aren’t learning a lot of things right now.
But me? I haven’t had this good of a month in ages. Possibly decades.
I get to stay in my home, which I love. I get to structure my own time. There is enough time to do the things I want to do during the day. There is enough time to rest. I can really focus in on building my businesses. I don’t have a lot of (or any) outside demands on my time.
This pandemic has taught me that I don’t think I can go back to the way I was living. Shoving in my W-9 work after a long day of W-2 work. Constantly exhausted. Always feeling like I don’t spend enough time at home.
As with everything there’s a rub. Going to work every day let me keep living in this house, pay my bills and save money. I have to figure out how to do those things without going to work.
That said, I found a job to apply for at Reed college that excites me. If I get it, it will mean jumping back on that treadmill. It’s something to consider if I do get it.